God I’m crying out to you.
The concerns of my heart seemed to have multiplied to such a
burden that I cannot seem to carry.
I know that you long for us to cast our cares on you, and
Lord I have nothing else to do.
I have no one else to cling to, and nothing else to cling
to, but you and your mercy and love.
I feel so lost that I cannot see land. I feel like I’m
sinking in the sea and barely breathing.
Not only have I felt the solitude of the journey in this
life, but also Lord I seem to have been stricken down
even more so with my
physical health, and I am at a loss as to how I am to continue on in this
state.
But you Lord and you alone have given me courage hope and a
strength that I know cannot come from me.
I do not have many words to pray, but I will pray this;
Out of the complete desperation and loss I am feeling Lord,
I cling to you and your saving grace as I
continue to rise up each morning and
face the world of which I have created this large mess.
I need you to help me pick up the pieces of my life that
have fallen apart.
I pray that even in this life you have given me that you will
be honored God, and that you above all will be praised.
Glory be to God who can create amazing things to come out of
our struggles.
For I am nothing, and you are everything.
These are the cries of my heart.
Thanks for sharing. I wish I could help. I feel the same things inside. Although maybe God created the apparent mess. Only your worldly life has fallen apart, but your true life is with Him. I wish more people could be with you in your deepest struggles. You shouldn't have to feel so alone. You are obviously called for a special blessing, from special life circumstances. I pray you could find communion with God or with someone (or some people) in the deepest part of your suffering, so you could know the unity of souls in this world. Even love from family and friends is limited. I wish people could connect with one another under the mask.
ReplyDeletei would like to send you love and light from my country,Greece.
ReplyDeletei can connect to your feelings and concerns given that i suffer from the same disease.
this too shall pass..
love and light,
vasiliki
This reminds me of the Gungor song "You make beautiful things out of us." He never abandons a work that He has started - and you are one of his masterpieces (Phil. 1:6, Eph. 2:10). Praying that you would feel His closeness and see Him working in your life. <3
ReplyDeleteHugs,
~Rachel
God has a way of taking our biggest messes and using them in amazing ways. When we are weak, He is strong and His strength shines through in our weakness. This is a time to learn to fall completely on Him with all that you are and aren't. Your heart is in the right place, Anna. I can see that. Your prayer sounds much like the prayers of David. And God sees. God hears. He may seem far off at times, but He is working in all this mess and pain and trouble, and in the very end I know that you will see His amazing hand and understand His purpose behind this struggle.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you, dear Anna! Do not lose hope! For as long as we have God, we have hope, and He will NEVER abandon you, even at your worst. So hold tight to the knowledge that He is powerful and mighty and loving and this trouble is not for naught; He is working in great ways, even if you cannot see them, and He will do amazing things through this mess that seems so hopeless.
Love and blessings,
Rachel Allison